Help me Lord bring in the new year
By: Jim Gandolf
I
feel that this year was a test; of complete strategy on stress, on all levels
of trying. 2015 started on a positive note of extreme hope. I looked into my wife’s eyes and said, “Here
we go.” I started with a positive kiss
from Renee. I plan each situation in business like a General on a battle field.
I have to blanket my surroundings with very strong minded people that can bring
in positive results. I have to fight for everything, like as if every reaction
has a strong foundation. Everyone is fighting for the same reason in my corner.
I feel that each situation has a chance, as my partner makes it very clear to
me that no one has a chance at all to do business with me, while he is there (Which
is very good for me). I am the balance that needs to be hopeful in coming to a
close. That means; money is coming in to do even more business. Now; I will say
that business will not be this simple at all. Neither is life, and in personal
matters either. With families worlds apart, missed communication problems, and the
fear of what lies ahead, in our daily journey. Family members, being
destructive in every way towards your goals of getting started in the right
direction. Not all family members, just a few misguided in the mind, over
addictions of wasted life challenges. Seeing the pain of a friend that you have
experienced life with for over 38 years lose a parent, oh; but not just one
parent but two within a few months of each other. I prayed for this friend like
no other. I watch a same caliber of friend became a grandfather, as in the same
breath coming to terms with my own father’s death in July 2015. I had a few
contracts in racing signed, but then again it all comes to with the money not
arriving in time to do anything positive at all. Renee and I heard the news of
her father having heart problems and troubles were major problems. I watched
another friend of many years lose a mother as well. Death hit our world hard
this year, with no boundary of my own soul. Cancer had made a serious
appearance in my family this year, like no other factor in my 50 years of
living. Our friends have suffered cancer within their own families very hard. I will never forget the day something hit my
chest in so much pain, I just couldn’t breathe at all. I was told that I could
have Cancer in my lungs, pneumonia, oh, that it was all because of my Diabetes
(My wife had my back). I was in and out of medication all Sumer, while taking
my own mother to Radiation treatment every day, and all of her Chemotherapy as
well. I was getting attacks in my lungs like no other. I would only know that
mold set in my lungs to be my end, on a very soon note, if I did not take
action very soon. I did what I was to do; to get rid of this mess inside of me.
I prayed and got guidance from a Natural Doctor, and this Doctor knew what to
do. My wife knew something was wrong with my health, in all manners of my way
of effective living (My wife had my back even stronger).Our home was broken
into, and we were robbed and some major vandalizing happened to us, the Lord
helped us find peace. I was just not
able to function at all right through health. My heart started to give me
trouble and small pain has started all over again. Stress is alive and well in me, and I am close
to peace. I have seen wonderful works of the Lord, healings, and life
adjustments for the positive, and I am feeling better about the future. My wife
was very strong next to me in all of my pain. I feel that 2016 is going to be a
better year, because I am at peace with my life. I started to write about my
younger years, and that was the most painful life experience I could ever feel.
I had a very rough start in life and it was very painful to relive that down on
paper. I have set my freedom up for the rest of my days. This had taken me
years to start this writing project, and trust me you, my friends you are safe,
I didn’t talk too much about our fun days. I do have some tough subjects that
some of us went through, but all in all the Westside rules! I feel that I can
forgive the men and women that abused me growing up, and feel it’s time for me
to move forward in a way that makes since to me (praying every day). Write
about my adventures while I am still here. People that know me absolutely know
I love art, and laughter in just about all trials in life. I am counting the
years of being bullied in my life, and just can’t believe the mess of people
that have hacked into my Facebook, Twitter, Email accounts, and have bugged my
phone. These bullies have put little black boxes underneath my car to GPS track
me and my families movements. People have done this with our smart phones to no
ends through tracking my text, and calls. I know there is a sickness in my
world of haters, and I have put the right safety measures in my daily world. I
feel that 2016 will clear the muddy waters around me; governments are in a mood
to listen to great plans and most affordable ideas coming from me. I have made
some great new friends in the 2015 year, and I could of not of made it through
without them. I want to say, “Thank You!” to these new be friends. I am very
proud of my son; he is becoming a strong young man, and has positive friends. I
have fought to keep the madness away from him, and he can make some very good
decisions, and can admit when he has fallen. My step-daughter is the most
serious person of happiness in her daily life. My youngest daughter had turned
on the boosters and had stepped on the gas pedal as hard as she can. I know
that I am going to be very excited to see what lies ahead in the year 2016! I
have one hot wife that makes me happy as all get out. My youngest brother
Anthony (Tony) is getting married and I feel like he has a great person to
spend the rest of his life with. My brother Nick is doing great with his
family, Joshua is moving along just fine. I am praying for the other brothers
to get better in ever since of the way. 2015 came in with peace, but all hell
broke out and what a struggle in the mist of craziness throughout the year, but
now I am living in a peaceful balance in the ending week of 2015. I am so ready
for 2016 to be live and on time in my world of happiness. I guess that I found
out that most people just can’t let things go in all of my studying of being
abused in many forms of trials of growing up, but I had to reset my life in the
manner of forgiveness and love. We have to move on and fall in love with
ourselves all over again. We all need to heal in our own way with the Lord. It
is our personal relationship status with our private life, with God. Accepting
our trials like they are learning possibilities can end up being a game changer
for most of my most valuable friends. I
praise the Lord with this wonderful peace. Balance is strong when you give
everything to the Lord. I just tried to
send everyone that I could private prayers; I have seen what you and your own
families have gone through. Renee and I will keep the prayers flowing. I love
to write and go on and on about how valuable all of you are in each and every
one of mine and Renee’s life.
Thank you for a good year ending 2015!
Jim Gandolf
Author: 500 Miles the book
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